This weekend I went to our family property.  This has always been my happy spot....it will be again and hopefully always will be, but with time. Right now it brings me happiness and sadness (so many good memories being married).  I am really trying and pushing myself in a healthy way to do things that hurt now, but once was something I loved doing.  I am a pretty motivated person and don't like to stay in a rut for a long time, so as I feel better about things I am really trying to press forward to a next step whatever that next step may be.  For me this weekend it was all about getting on my four wheeler.  I love four wheeling. It takes me to a place where I think and reflect. It always has brought me peace.  This was something that was very dear to me in my past and I have the fondest of memories four wheeling in my past.  As I received some clarity over the weekend I knew I needed to press forward to this step. I did indeed got on the four wheeler this weekend.  It felt good. invigorating, peaceful and nice.  I was able to think, reflect for a minute and progress to a new level.  This was a huge hump to hurdle over for so many reasons.  I drove to the look out point. It was just me with the trees and silence in this beautiful place. As I sat at the look out I felt like I was on top of the world. I felt close to heaven. I talked to my Heavenly Father. I poured my heart out to him. I asked for help, strength, faith, healing and love. I felt so close to heaven in this special place. It was one of the Lord's tender mercies that no one was at the look out point at that very moment because there is always someone at the look out point.  I was able for a split second partake of a little slice of heaven by myself to feel the peace, silence, comfort and talk to my Father in Heaven.